2005-02-19 - 4:21 p.m.
I decided to do at least one thing each day, rather than just putting it off. Yesterday I told my boyfriend that I could not give him what he wanted. It was my way of breaking up with him and even though he gave me money for rent, he did not sleep here last night and we only spoke briefly this morning when he stopped in to brush his teeth. It was irritating, though, because he asked me how to work this PDA I had given him. I was still in bed and When I went to show him I guess my boob became uncovered and he rudely told me to cover up. Well I told him to figure it out for himself and that he hurts me all the time. He said that I hurt him and then he left. Well later I got up and I returned the Valentines gift I got him, bought a starbucks latte and danish and did a little grocery shopping. I tried watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, this movie is really frustrating and I can't get through it. I napped and then I re-examined my budget--things are pretty grim, especially once my ex boyfriend leaves for good and stops paying me rent, so I registered for the cbest exam, which is April 9. I can hang on til then and start subbing again, that would make up for the missing $$. I will study and focus on passing it, I have a major math phobia, but I can get over it if I try.
Tonite I will have dinner at my mom's--hope she doesn't ask about what i'm going thru, I couldn't stand to hear her say I told you so. Then movies to see the new keanu reeves flick, constantine. Tomorrow I am making a roast in the crock pot to take over to my mom's. I will stay busy and I think that as more time passes I will feel better about being single again.
